Complete Randomness!!!

Before I turn negative, I want to share this:

God didn't promise days without pain laughter without sorrow, sun without rain. But he did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears and a light for the way.

I saw this saying on a sign in some catalog somewhere and it struck me. Since it was during a time that I was feeling well, I saved the text so I could pull it out at a time like this. Now I'm planning to find and buy the sign to hang in my bedroom so that it is the first thing that I see in the morning.

On another note--Since I recently spent two months doped up and stuck mostly in my bedroom on a medical leave, I redecorated my entire bedroom and living room in my mind. After I returned to work and had my full income again, I started shopping around for all of the components of our bedroom, beginning with a pair of black-and-white curtains with a fancy pattern that I thought my husband would never agree to, but he did...let's face it, I've spent way more time in this room than he has as of late, so I feel like I have the right to claim eminent domain on the decor. :)

OK, onto the negative. Since my Dr. is now on the blood train, I sent my mom an email asking for information about all of the hemophilia and other blood-related diseases in my family. Sadly, many men, or should I say boys, have died of hemophilia since the 1920s, and many women suffered from other bleeding issues as well. If you've ever witnessed one of my EPIC nosebleeds, you can understand why I am now becoming frightened for my own future at this point. My first concern has to be myself, but my second is now to have a genetic work-up to find out if I am a carrier of any of these diseases. By all accounts that I have been able to gather, I will be the first to go through testing like this, so the women in my immediate family (a total of 5), are going to be very interested to see what happens.

Next, is that for the first time since I've returned to work in November, I had to admit to my boss that I just don't think I can keep up with my main projects. More on that at another time, but let me just say the words were not easy to say.

Finally, I just can't seem to figure out a way to comfortably get through the day. One would think a pain clinic would be aiming to make me comfortable in both the long and short term, but this one only seems to be concerned about the long term. Friday seems miles away...

...and speaking of...I am a week into my pill case experiment. This morning, I woke up groggy and in pain, had the case upside-down and took my PM pills. Luckily for me, I removed the pill that knocks me out cold at night (See my post titled "Ash Wednesday High" for more on that pill) so it wasn't a huge deal, but I have some doses that are higher at night than in the morning.

For my finale...out with a bang. Tomorrow, I submit my application for graduation for my bachelor degree in Business Administration! It's been a long, long, loooooooooong road to get there, but I'll be proudly walking across the stage to snatch my diploma on May 16th. You'd better bet that there is going to be a party at my place, and you're all invited.
-S