I feel ok today--definitely not good or great. I have one big knot of pain in my abdomen and I can't really describe it. I can't make it go away either. Stretching, walking, moving, not moving, sitting, laying down and peppermint oil (read on) did not help. Neither did percoset or cyclobenzaprine.
As for days prior to today:
- I was in the ER last Thursday with the WORST migraine of my life, and that says a lot because I've lost count of the number of times migraines have brought me to the ER. I was literally screaming from the pain while I impatiently waited for the doctor for over two hours. At least I wasn't the guy that had maggots in his oozing leg--overhearing that made me even more nauseated.
- I've been getting massages lately, and they're fabulous. It started with a gift certificate, and then I bought a bulk package. This fabulous woman that I now see has similar health problems and is just fabulous. I'm trying her essential oils and natural pain relief cures and they are helping, with the exception of today. The result? I take far fewer painkillers than I was taking.
- I know what percoset withdrawal feels like. A year ago, I was taking over 300 in just 2 weeks time. Two months ago, I took 90 in a month. Three weeks ago, I had gone 4 days without taking even a portion of a pill, but I started to experience strong withdrawal symptoms. Sadly, I still need a 1/2 pill every so often so I'm stuck in this place where I have a lot of symptoms a lot of the time. I'm praying for the day that I don't need any and I feel great! It's just so unfair to have to go through that when I've never once abused the prescription.
- I had another nerve block. This was my best recovery yet because I literally did NOTHING for the few days following the procedure as opposed to breaking orders and going back to work the next day. It still hurts to recover, gut it goes much faster. Sadly, i think the block is wearing off yet again.
- I think I want to go back to work, but I'm not really ready. I have too many crappy days to sustain employment. That totally sucks. On the bright side, I'm still making good progress. Next week wil be six months since I've left my job, and a full year since the wheels came off and I had to go on medical leave for two months. I think I'll write more on this on another day.
OK, I'm in need of a nap. Til we meet again.
-S
